Please don’t think like that @haxuan, you were put on this earth to do fantastic things and make all your dreams come true, everything will be OK and things will work out for you, stay positive and surround yourself with things that bring you hope, happiness and brightness, smile and make each day as wonderful as you can, you are a fighter who will make it through this, hold your head up high, keep going forward and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)