I feel so flawed… but I know I have to keep going… keep living and trusting the flow of my life. I know that I don’t mean to hurt anyone but I know that certain traits of mine can seem hurtful even though it’s not intentional. This comes with being human… I am very loving, forgiving, and truly desire the best for myself and others. I don’t mean to fall short… but it’s what happens sometimes it seems… because someone may want more but it doesn’t always happen because my human way of being… being in this body, seems to cause things to be more challenging… without the body, I am love completely, with the body, comes all these weird challenges… I can help organize my home, I’ve been organizing myself first and I’ve come to the point where I understand that now I must organize my home because my home is an extension of me. I get too distracted by the internet and researching, it’s my way of escaping…. even though I realize I shouldn’t be always on the internet, I should be out enjoying life and keeping my home organized so that I can invite others to my home, which will help relationships to develop more which is what hasn’t had a chance all these years.