What’s new? I’m new…..new here, at least. I can’t say I don’t have friends, but I DO have social anxiety. I haven’t left my house in a month. Why? Because my boyfriend moved to Alaska for 5 or more months to work and save money for college. He didn’t want to do a long distance relationship because he says they never work. They don’t work if you don’t care or don’t try. Needless to say I’m still really hurting inside because he truly is my soul mate. We’re trying to do the ”just best friends” thing, but it’s not working for me, yet I’m the one taking care of his dog and he still has a bunch of stuff at my house. I know I’m co-dependent as well as having this social anxiety, so it only makes all of this worse. I thought he would have cared enough to contact me soon after I was out of the ER last week. I let him know I had went in that day and he said he hoped I would feel better blah, blah, blah and I waited 6 days to see if he would initiate a conversation first. Being me, I couldn’t wait anymore. I was getting upset and paranoid. He’s PROMISED no girlfriends while he’s there, but I still worry no matter how much I trusted him when he was here. I know his personality, why do you think I fell in love with him? He’s already told me he’s had to turn down a girl, which just knowing it happened pisses me off. It’s like he thinks I should say thank you, you’re such a great person, when in my mind I’m thinking he wanted to know this person, but now just has to keep this annoying promise to me. I’m in cycles of depression, paranoia, and anger. I cry every day. Sometimes I feel like just telling him I can’t do this anymore. I feel like I could actually do more and worry less if he’d have been willing to at least TRY doing the long distance thing even if he plans on only coming back here for a month before his ”plans” to go to college in Florida. I’m REALLY hurting inside. I want to talk to him about it, but it would be like the 3rd conversation we’ve had like this. I understand I should be focusing on myself on getting my life together, but it’s hard to focus on doing something for my life when my soul mate is out there and technically single. It’s almost like he said, ”We both need to work on ourselves so, let me break up with you and move away for 5 months, but we’ll still be best friends.” Just feels like shit to me!