I don’t know what to do anymore. The things that I used to enjoy, the things that I used to love and do effortlessly, for example: reading or writing poetry, have become things that I simply can not bother to do anymore because of the amount of effort it takes. I wouldn’t call myself lazy, I just lack a lot of motivation. I constantly feel as if I am drowning, I constantly feel as if I am just striving to even breathe and its honestly so painful. I have created a distance between myself and everyone and everything. I’m either really hungry or not hungry at all, similarly to my pattern of sleeping. A while ago, I started to feel nothing. I was emotionally numb; frozen. Suddenly, I’ve started to feel everything all at once and I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I don’t even know who I am anymore.