Minnow said 7 years, 8 months ago:

Ever since the fourth grade, I’ve had a huge fear of vomit. The funny thing is, its only about other people doing it anywhere near me. It makes me want to hold my breath until i faint. When I have attacks, I go to a mirror and scream at myself, I sit on the bathroom floor and scratch myself, punch myself in the jaw, and I even rubbed my arm so hard it scarred over. I really don’t mean to do these things. I don’t know where to go anymore. I contemplate suicide sometimes now, and its getting worse. I can’t talk to anyone because they tell me not to be afraid of that, but I cant. Please help.

mariko said 7 years, 8 months ago:

I think people tell you that cause they’re not going through what you are so they don’t (and can’t) understand. So they try to say that to cheer you up. But now please listen when I say this: don’t hate yourself. Every single one of Blahtherapy members have their own personal demons and it’s (excuse my language) fucked up, so don’t be ashamed or scared, cause you can and will be fixed.
I would recommend you to seek a professional , cause I think besides anxiety you developed a huge phobia and trauma of vomit. So you definetly need someone to give you the tools to control your anxiety and attacks.
Try to talk to your family doctor and ask them if they can recommend you a cheap psychologist, or maybe try to find a free psychologist in your town. Also Blahtherapy has professionals, but you have to pay for it though.
Meanwhile I’m right here for you, feel free to message me anytime, I’m right here to listen and to cheer you up. I wish you the best of luck