Always take small steps! Learn, get all the experience available to you and use it to your advantage.
It is hard to stick with this kind of advice but changing the way you think and approach anything can be so helpful.
Never ever think you’re a loser, because you are not. You are limitless, and if you need help in achieving what you want to do, get that help. Ask your friends, support is always welcome no matter what stage you are in your life right now.
I wish you the best and please let me know how it goes! Whether you think it’s progress or not, post a daily entry like a journal to see where you are heading and plan from there. Take your time, I know you can do it!