Let’s say that since a few years I’ve became a nervous person when I feel stressed up. Like, a lot stressed up. This happens when I’m having exams for university, or it’s been more than a week that there are problems at home with my family. So, when I have this kind of “nervous period”, I tend to answer in a harsh way to friends and family, things that I regret later on and I ask for an apology for having that behavior. Nothing much though, although I felt nervous and stressed up, it affects my emotions and my behavior, and as I said, more than anything I feel nervous.
But yesterday something felt.. different. I was feeling lonely, and I got nervous with a friend of mine because he wasn’t by my side making me feel less lonely. What made me feel worried is that instead of just feeling nervous, talking to myself or walking nervously in my room, or, you know, trying to vent to make me feel better, I felt a burst of energy coming out of my body, and anger coming with it. I’ve never felt so energetic, but it wasn’t an energy I could control. I had the urge to break something, I was messing with my phone restraining myself with all my strenght to not throw it away against the wall. So I thought, if I have all this energy in my body, better take it out. I started doing phisical exercises for an hour more or less, I felt tired after it, but sooo much better. I wasn’t feeling angry or nervous anymore, I felt so happy, and I just returned to my routine as if nothing happened.
What do you think was it?