Deleted User said 8 years, 8 months ago:

My cuts are slowly fading and it makes me want to cut again, deeper, to make them stay. Do any of you feel the same way? Any idea why?

ExtraLethargy said 8 years, 8 months ago:

The only scars I have are from a bike crash so I guess the situation is much different. Cuts made with sharp objects like razors never fully heal though, so they will always be there. No reason to open them up again just for pride. By your scars healing it means what happened to cause them is healing.

Deleted User said 8 years, 8 months ago:

Yeah I can understand that. I used to feel the same way when I was an active self harmer.
For me I think it was about the scars on the outside representing the pain on the inside which I felt.
Try not to give into that feeling as you will be left with permanent scars and once you have dealt with your issues they could be an issue for you in the future.

Rain said 8 years, 8 months ago:

For me my scars contain memories. Not always good ones, but still. There were times where I really hated my scars, but eventually I learned to see the beauty in them by realizing how it all made me stronger in the end. As some of them are still fading a bit, a part of me might miss them. However, I think looking at them just keeps reminding you of your mistake. My last ones from a month ago are still healing, but I know I won’t cut again. I’ve cut myself on and off for 9 years. I already wanted to stop, but a month ago I stopped because my best friend said that for every time I’d cut myself, he’d cut himself. It’s not fair when someone says something like that, but that did it for me. It won’t always be easy, but I don’t want my best friend to cut himself because of me. So it was an easy decision, I chose my best friend above cutting. I hope you won’t give in to that urge that you’re feeling.

WanderingCreature said 8 years, 8 months ago:

When I was actively cutting, I was always sad when the cuts started to heal and I could no longer feel the pain of the injury rub against my clothing to remind me it was there. I liked feeling the physical pain as a reminder that I was still human and, even though I did not feel anything but sadness, I was still capable of feeling.
I always cut in parallel and organized sections where no one could see and when they started to fade I would usually add more so I could have a “collection”.
I understand where you are right now (if your scars are hidden) but there will be a time in your life when you will be able to look back at them and see that you are a survivor! and you are strong.
I have since covered up my scars with a tattoo that I drew up to represent guidance on my journey in life.
Just remember you are not alone, no matter what you feel. Skin is meant to heal, and so are you. Things will be better.

Chapstick said 8 years, 8 months ago:

I haven’t harmed myself in quite a long time now, but I feel the scars are a good reminder for me. So I do like them.

ehmilee said 8 years, 7 months ago:

When I see my scars from self harm it reminds me that they didn’t kill me. I’m still here. I am strong. They remind me that when I thought it was hopeless it really wasn’t.

They remind me of how far I have come.

Deleted User said 8 years, 7 months ago:

I used to cut words into my arms, stomach and hips and a couple years later I can still see a few of them quite plainly, others have faded to illegibility. A part of me likes to try to prove them wrong, while the clearest (“worthless”) is oddly comforting when I’m extremely upset, because I feel like I’ve labelled myself with how I always really feel. Strange, eh?