Last night, I wasn’t feeling like normal and I suddenly I tried to remember the last time I self-harmed. After so long, I noticed how badly the urge was to do it again and I did.
The last time I ever cut myself was last year, I think. Well last night I just scratched myself raw and then kept doing it until I felt I couldn’t stand it. Now my arms are sore and red like a rash from the skin tearing from my long nails, I did later use a dull knife, but luckily it didn’t do much.
Now I can’t get over these urges to continue it again. I want to so badly cut for the pleasure of leaving a scar, but I don’t at the same time. What can I do to get my mind of it?