Jess said 6 years, 2 months ago:

My boyfriend and I were both abused as children and as a result we both have disorders. We both go to therapy to deal with them. We both have a different disorder and both of our childhood experiences were different. His was more about neglect while mine was more physical. We’ve both grown up and are now happy. So happy in fact we are starting a family. Our baby will be born this December and we can’t wait. The thing is that I worry about being a good mother. I mean, I know what not to do because of my childhood and I know what works and doesnt work when it comes to dealing with children. I work with children every day as my job. I’m a decent teacher but will I be a decent mother? Maybe I worry too much. I have this need to make sure everything is perfect for her. I need to make sure she’s safe and happy. I want her to always know she’s loved and wanted. No matter how much I’m told that I will do fine or how much I prove to myself that I won’t fail her I still have this fear that because of my disorder or because of how I grew up that I’ll mess up and do the wrong thing. My father was abused as a child and in turn did the same to me. I won’t let that happen to my little girl so maybe my fear is pointless. I still can’t make it go away, though. I just needed a place to let this all out. Thanks for reading and sorry it was so long.

Dan said 6 years, 2 months ago:

You’ll be a great mother :) Im not sure if you remember, but we had the oppertunity to talk alittle bit towards the end of last year If I remember correctly, I think that not only are you both going to be the ones to break your own cycle’s of abuse. But inspire people and show them that they can be broken. That even though you had to go through something because they blamed it on someone else does not mean that it’s a law that it must continue. You’re choosing to change the way the river flows towards a lighter future for cole, and your son/daughter. Fantastic Job, I really applaude you on what you’ve made of a bleak situation, the shadows died down to make way for the dance of brilliant light. Good luck in the anticipation of December and Take Care! ^^

Jess said 6 years, 2 months ago:

Yeah I remember. Thank you. I just cant help but worry. I want the best for our little girl.