Deleted User said 8 years, 11 months ago:
Hi!
So I’m 17 and been cutting since I’m 12, mainly to relieve extreme anger and avoid hurting others… (If you wanna know more about how I started, feel free to message me).
(Trigger warning, just in case)
About 1 year ago, I noticed a change in my self harming habit: I would slowly loose interest in cutting and start hitting my head with my fists or on the wall until sometimes, I’d get the same symptoms as if I had a head trauma. I thought that this way, nobody would see scars… Except I hit myself so strongly I make my mouth bleed and get confusions and lumps all over my face…
I know I didn’t choose this, but if I had, would have it been better to keep on cutting? The effects I get when hitting scares me.
So I wanted to know if anybody here uses the same method as me and, if you self harm because you are angry at someone, do you “project” your anger on yourself (like, “I’m so angry at this person I could hurt her/him with a knife, so instead, I hurt myself with a knife so I don’t get in trouble” ?)
PS: I’m really sorry if I ever scared you off with this. You can ignore this post.
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