PaintWhite said 7 years, 11 months ago:

Okay, so, I’ve been diagnosed with depression but I don’t feel as though it’s enough. Like, I think there’s something else wrong with me but I just don’t know what it could be. I’m waiting for my CAT therapy to start but then I’m not sure if this is the best place to bring something like this up. I don’t know if it’s a mood disorder or a personality disorder or what, I just, I don’t feel right and I feel really unstable, as if I could very easily just snap and I just. I don’t know.
The depression diagnosis was accurate. I have periods of feeling very slow and I self mutilate and I find it hard to sleep plus other symptoms. But then it doesn’t explain times where, some of that just isn’t around. Like, when I don’t want to sleep or when I’m just really irritable at everything because I just know exactly how I want things to go and know that it’s possible but then something goes wrong and it ruins it and it’s so stupid but then I’m also a really anxious kind of person and I don’t like big crowds (Like clubbing is horrible) and I don’t know.
I don’t know how to get help or where to go to get that help.

Jess said 7 years, 11 months ago:

Any sort of talk therapy is a good place to start. I wouldnt really suggest someone that just throws meds at you. Yes, medication can be helpful in some situations but it wont help you learn about yourself and why you are the way you are. From what you describe it’s possible that it is just depression and those other things are just personality quirks that arent actually linked to anything. But its also possible that depression is just a symptom of something else. There’s no real way of knowing until you see someone about it. Just be aware that properly diagnosing a personality disorder takes some time. They wont be able to tell you the very first session or anything. It takes a little while. Especially if you’re like me and not very open during your sessions. It took me a while to get comfortable and be able to talk so my diagnosis took quite a few sessions. Mine is a lot different than yours but it still has some things in common. I hope things work out for you and you find the help you need. My inbox is open if you need anything.