LostAndNeverFound said 9 years, 9 months ago:

There is this Guy and I really look up to him and i think of him as a big brother…Our friendship went down hill and he stopped talking to me. I’m currently deeply depressed and i feel like I miss him, I think more sexually about him and I don’t want to except it because I don’t want anything to change espeically our age difference im 14 and he is 19. It confuses me too because i dont know if i do love him or…if i do look up to him. maybe both?