Lord Dimi said 7 years, 10 months ago:

Back in early January to late February and mid March, I had been in many fights with my girlfriend and we had said and done things to each other. One of those things were cheating and talks of suicide and saying horrible things to each other. When she had left me because I ‘changed’, I felt like I lost myself. I mean, I felt as if I died inside and was replaced with a different person, someone who looked and acted like me, but he was darker, he loved pain, he loved hurting others, watching others hurt each other; it was as if it was my darker side, my complete opposite. It’s been nearly a year since then, but I’m still like that. My girlfriend and I are still together, but I’m more scared of losing her because of my dark side and how it will come back, and it has on several occasions. She has been saying she wants the old me back, but I’m still searching for that old me. If anyone can help, or at least talk to me, I’d love that. Thank you