Hello, first of all nice to meet you. I can relate to pretty much everything you’re going through. Attempted suicides, depression, self-harming as well, …
After almost three years I can tell you I’ve changed a lot. I am much better, though some days are still dark, I’ve learned to try and just see some light.
But I didn’t do that all by myself, I had lots of help. It took me a lot of time to just find the courage to ask for it, and that’s why you should be proud of you for just trying to seek help.
Now here, we can offer you, moral support but I do think you should truly try and find somebody around you, who could support you in every way to get better, because you can get better. You must believe that. All these things you’re going through, you will outgrow them. You should never lose hope.
You can come and talk in private for more support to whomever you want and feel comfortable to talk to. Sometimes it’s just such a relief to just vent to someone.
I hope you’ll be okay.