I never pictured myself in the life I’m living now.
When I was 15 and you told me I’d be married, and wishing for children at 30 I’d have laughed at you and told you that you were crazy.
But, I found a guy who understood me. We didn’t get married with a big white dress with all of our family and friends. We signed a physical piece of paper in judges chambers. The bond that paper gives us is nothing compared to what we feel in our hearts. Maybe we’ll get that wedding on our ten year anniversary maybe something else will be more important.
As for kids; even after I was married I didn’t want kids. Even after I found out I was pregnant I wasn’t sure I could do it. But at six months I wanted a child. I was so excited… unfortunately for us it didn’t work out. I lost my pregnancy shortly after I became excited.
But now we’re working on adopting. It’s exciting. It’s rejuvenating.
Life isn’t what you expect it to be. And it’s okay to not see things. Be flexible. Nothing is set in stone.