Eleena said 10 years, 6 months ago:

For three whole years, since I was a freshman, I liked this upperclassman. He and I never really shared a conversation, but I never knew he was a closet case. I always thought he liked me too. We would share subtly, yet obvious signs with each other, like eye contact and brushing past each other. The only reason why I can confirm that these were signs was because recently he was doing the same routine, but with my friend. I was jealous, even if I didn’t want to admit it. But just the other night after our band performance, I saw him hugging a dude. It wasn’t a bro hug, a one armed hug, or a quick one either. It was a full arm body to body hug that lasted for a while. He saw me see him with the expression of, “oh, fuck!” I never knew, I wasted all my time on a gay boy. (P.S. I am accepting of any sexual orientation) but this crushed my spirit. FUCK. MY. LIFE. The other boy he was hugging was this other boy I kinda liked too…and they’re both really cute. It’s always the cute ones. Whatever. At least now I know I have 0% chance with him…I hope he and his dude are happy together. I can’t really be mad at him for this, though. I mean, I never even got to know him in the first place. Maybe if I had just talked to him at first I would’ve known sooner. Goodbye, TPG2.

Eleena said 10 years, 6 months ago:

I never said we can’t have a friendship, but we won’t be friends anyways. We’re just way too different (sexual orientation aside).

Eleena said 10 years, 6 months ago:

I don’t have a good reason for liking him. It just kinda…happened. It’s something you can understand if you’ve been in that situation. Believe me, I wish I could understand these things.