Lucipherous said 10 years, 9 months ago:

my life is actually falling apart. at least it feels that way.

at the beginning of the summer, i moved in with my sister so i could go to a different school. i had to leave the school i was at because i was raped and no one believed me. i lost all my friends. they got together and all turned against me, shared my secrets, and told lies about me. people threatened me to the point i had to leave the school.

now my sister and i always got along great. we were eachothers best friends. she has a husband, who i don’t get along with at all. he has abused my sister many times and did drugs behind her back. those are just the main reasons why i don’t like him, there are much more. but she invited him over today for dinner, even though i asked her not to. so when he came over, i just went to my room and packed my things the whole time they were visiting. now i’m here at my moms with all my stuff. even though me and my mom have never been able to get along. i don’t know what to do. at the same time, my anxiety, schizophrenia, and insomnia has gotten really, really bad. i haven’t slept in 3 days. it’s really hard to talk to my boyfriend because our only way of communication is his phone and he doesn’t get service in his house. i have no friends. i have no one to talk to, no one to go to. i feel like my only options are to run away or kill myself. i need advice, guidance, compassion, anything.

Lucipherous said 10 years, 9 months ago:

thank you so much. your kindness means a lot to me.

matthoughton said 10 years, 9 months ago:

Woah, You’re so strong for going through all that. It’s going to get better. Remember; Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I’m always here if you ever feel like its getting too much and you need a chat. I hope it all starts looking up very soon. I’m sure it will!

Court21 said 10 years, 9 months ago:

You are really strong to still be going through all of this. I can’t understand anyone’s exact situation, but I know the feelings of being raped and the hell it puts you through emotionally. If you suffer from flashbacks at all I suggest you try and find some small thing in them that you can focus on that has absolutely nothing to do with what happened, like the color of the ground and focus on that if you can’t get the flashback out of your mind. I find it can be effective since you aren’t looking at the main events that happened. Also, I can understand the issues of not being able to talk with your boyfriend because my boy is with the military right now and we really only have contact through snail mail and then the very rare phone call. It’s very difficult when you can’t talk with he one person you really want to. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can message me anytime though. Keep strong and keep fighting, it may be difficult now, but you can make it through it all.

(◣_◢)Poet said 10 years, 9 months ago:

Lol @mewliz