Okay, so I used to be anorexic, the starving type, when I was 12-16, I was brought back to health when I went into care and finally I got over what starting me starving myself in the first place.
I wasn’t physically anorexic anymore, but it my mind, anorexia was always talking to me. I’m quite tall, 5ft8″, so my normal healthy height weight is something like 91/2-10stone, or so I’m told. Which basically means that at a size 8-10, I’m slim. Any time I felt my jeans a little tight anorexia, or annie, as I shortened it to, would start talking to me, telling me I was gaining too much weight, that I couldn’t put on any more.
I tried so hard to ignore it and for a long time I succeeded, even with the trials and tribulations that tested me in my life at that time and still test me today.
But now I am terrified that it has started to take over. I’ve lost interest in food, find myself not being hungry when I know I should eat, standing up to feel light headed a lot because I haven’t eaten, and when I try to eat, the food doesn’t taste like anything, it tastes strange and unlike it should. I try to eat it but half way I just spit it back out again.
I’m getting sick because my immune system is shot, I don’t know what to do about it. I need some help with this matter.