getting through it said 9 years, 3 months ago:

So my brother abuses me often and he has tried to kill me twice. I have been going through a lot of depression lately, but I refuse to kill myself simply because I would feel like I would be a coward. Today I started thinking that I could make my brother snap and try to kill me again but this time not stop him. It sounds better and better every minute and this worries me… I don’t know what to do…

Deleted User said 9 years, 3 months ago:

Well done on coming here seeking help because I know that’s not easy but it does sound like you need all the support you can get because this abuse needs to stop.
I would urge you to seek help, what would it be like to talk to your parents or some other trusted adult?
There are always options and things can better but you really do need to try and get yourself out of this dangerous situation. You can PM me and we can discuss all the options available to you.
You are not alone!