Perfectly Flawed said 6 years, 3 months ago:

I’m new to BlahTherapy, but I’m happy to be here.

When I was 13 I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I don’t tell everybody, but when I do, they say “You? Really! You’re always in a good mood, you’re like never sad.”
Well the truth is, is depression is more than being sad. I learned that quickly.
I became confused, frustrated, stressed, hopeless. All of these adjectives in my head, everyday of my life. I felt overweight, unwanted, undesirable. While I was trying my best to make it seem like I was fine, I wasn’t. I fooled everyone. It was the perfect cover.
By the time I turned 14 I turned to something I thought I never would. I began to self-harm. I turned to my friends and teachers for help, getting everything that they could give me. Finally after 6 months I tried to overdose on a few pills. Nothing worked and nothing could take me out of here.
I didn’t want to seek help. But when my mom found my scars, I had no choice, right?
Now I am 19 years old, I have completely turned myself around. I went to trade school and I have become a very successful beautician, and I one day hope to write a screenplay that will make people’s eyes water-from laughing too hard. When I was 16 I decided to lose weight, making myself 45 pounds lighter and 45% happier.
I look back on when I was 15, trying to get help and thinking that no one cared about me. They did. I think, they gave me all they could, and I’m ok with that. But the one thing that I cannot stress enough, is this.
You can scream and say no one cares and no one is giving help, but there will come a point where you need to get up, and help yourself as well.
I can proudly say, that I did indeed help myself. It’s not easy. It took a lot of trial and error, but if I can wake up in the morning and still open my window shades, I want to help others do that, too.

Thank you.
~Perfectly Flawed

Silent Radiance said 6 years, 3 months ago:

@racingcoconuts

BlahTherapy is happy to have you here, Ali ^_^. I hope you enjoy your stay, there are a lot of wonderful people here who would love to help and be helped. Your story is wonderful, I’m so happy that you made it through all of that. It must have been quite difficult, as you said. Thank you for sharing it :) .

big pipsqueak said 6 years, 3 months ago:

I hope my story ends like yours did.