Well, it happened. I got dumped. It’s been about 3 weeks since we’ve seen each other, 2 since we’ve spoken. I have come to realize that, while of course I still miss him, the break up really was for the best. I just have one issue I can’t seem to get past. We ended really, really badly. Lot’s of yelling, I was drunk…it just wasn’t good. Being my sometimes over bearing self, of course I had about a week of the ‘but whyyyy’s?” and he made it clear that he did not want to talk. I don’t know if I just love shame or what… but the WAY we ended is really, really bothering me. I keep reading, journaling, praying, talking to friends, going out and having fun and staying occupied…but I CANNOT get past the urge to text him to apologize. We were friends before dating and I hate the thought of us never being friends again some day. I’ve written it out, I’ve been holding on to it for about 4-5 days. I feel like such a moron. He doesn’t want to talk, I get that!!! I just hate bad blood. I don’t want him back, but I hate this anger and bitterness between us. Tell me that texting him is a bad idea!!!