I’m 18, and I know I’m going to get a lot of comments saying “oh but you’re still so young! Don’t worry about it!”, but I’ve always been alone.
And by that, I mean a few things. I’ve never had friends, and what friends I did have, they weren’t really the greatest to me. (About 3 or 4 years ago, they actually threatened to kill me…but that’s not the point)
Another thing is that guys have never had an interest in me. They call me fat and ugly, and I know I should just let it go, but I can’t. I have bad enough self esteem as it is, and that doesn’t help at all. I don’t know…I “try” to get guys’ attention. I’ve actually signed up for dating sites now that I’m 18, and while I’ve gotten some messages, it’s really only been about 5 and I’ve pretty much messaged them.
So, will this last forever? I always like to try and think there’s someone out there for everyone, but I’ve been doubting it a lot lately. I’m probably being overly dramatic, as I usually am, but this feeling is just the worst…