I don’t want there to be worries. I want everyone to just be happy and for everyone to love each other. I want a place where its always late afternoon and there’s running water and it smells like clean air and good nights. Where everyone wants to be there and all we can think about is here and now, and we fly by the seats of our pants, and live in the moment. Where we thrive and not just survive. I want there to always be a happy tune playing in my head. For there always to be healthy food and yummy snacks in my fridge, and for my gym shorts to always smell like bounce sheets. I want to crawl into bed with crawl into bed every night with Chris, and to wake up, roll over, and kiss the love of my life good morning. I want to find time to learn a musical instrument. I want to jump from a plane and look down at the world below me, where all my problems which seemed massive now appear tiny. I want to hide inside and play board games on rainy days. I want my bike tires to always be pumped full, and for there always to be a weird place to find at the end of the trail. I want endless sunsets and bright happy sunrises. I want to feel sand between my toes and cool water rushing over my feet. My hair wild and ratty like it so often is. I want to sing along to old throwbacks on the staticy radio on nothing days. I want warm douvets in the winter time, and to go hiking in the fall. I want to jump in puddles in the spring, and to watch fireworks in the summer. I want to wake up everyday inspired and motivated and happy. I want to be happy, and to live the life I’ve always dreamed. I want to move on, and be able to do some of the things I want to do.These are the things that make me smile, that make me happy. They are all drawn from experience; or from aspirations, goals, or dreams.I’m not a fighter. I’m a thinker. I’m a lover. I’m an artist.I’m a liver. And I want to live.And you've got to want to find your own motivation to live a life worth living.
