Why is it so hard to live in peace?


I’ve had enough of these problems and this stress. I know, I know, I’m not a little kid anymore, if I have to do something, I just have to keep myself together and go for it, I have a life in front of me, and I just can’t do nothing. But I feel so stressed out: because I have to take exams of a college that I’ll probably leave, I have no clue of what I would like to do after, I don’t know what should I do for my future, I HAVE to help out my family because my mother is ill, and my father is a alcholist who doesn’t do anything.

When I’m at home, they call me around to help them out, but no one is willing to help me even though I have other things to do. All I want is just to have my mind in peace, I hate stress, I hate studying, I hate when people don’t respect me, and most of things, I hate feeling so useless because someone look down on me. I’m clueless. And pathetic. I want to sleep dreaming and wishing that when I’ll wake up everything will be all right. Impossible, huh? This is reality. Man, I’m 20 already, and I feel like a little kid of 17 years old who doesn’t want responsabilities, even though as a woman what I wish the most is to get married and have kids, is it so hard?

asked December 22, 2014

2 Answers

I'm with you with this one.
Thank you so much for your answers. I'm a little demotivated now, but I wish I could find something to do for a future job that I like. I don't want to be a bother for anyone, and even though I want to get married, I have a pride (I'm too proud, it's not really a good thing) so I want to be independent as well. Maybe I should stop to complain and start doing something. As for my family, I think it will be hard. My parents don't communicate to each other anymore, and I'm like a bridge for them, but still, whatever I say it's like they're hearing a complaining spoiled brat, so it's not really great, but I have to try.