I can make friends easily, but in time we’ll eventually drift apart. Most friends I make don’t really care to ask me if I ever want to do something, and if they do it’s only once in a while, and it’s usually something with a whole group of friends. And when I’m with them, I always feel like an accessory or a fifth wheel. I can easily gets someone’s attention, but no matter what it seems like in the end they just don’t care about me. I used always try to get people to do things with me, but most of the time everyone just doesn’t care to do something with me. I just gave up eventually, and haven’t seen anyone in… well let’s say a long, LONG time. Now I’m mostly distant myself from all of my friends in general, unless they purposely try to contact me, which hasn’t happened yet (at least to people unrelated to me).
And it’s not just that, even making friends online (which is MUCH harder to keep, for me anyways). We talk for the first day, then eventually throughout the week, and then the conversation starts to grow stale. Or more like, talking can be less interesting, especially if it’s a conversation that has been dragged on over multiple days. Eventually we just stop talking. I’d happily try to upstart a new conversation with someone I haven’t talked to in a while, but will they do the same? No, or at least from what I’ve experience. This is why it’s such a pain for me to try and make friends online.