I’m so hideous, it hurts so much. I have an acne problem, and it’s showing no signs of improvement. If I don’t feel better by tonight I will kill myself. And don’t say some stupif bullshit like “Everybody is beautiful in their own way.” or “Your acne will go away when you get older.”
Beauty is just one of the many aspects someone can have. You may not have beauty (I doubt that you don't), but if you didn't you could also have other great qualities that matter more! Such as being nice, caring, kind, respectful, funny, and many more. Nobody is perfect, and just because you don't believe you have one quality doesn't mean that you kill yourself. It means you accept who you are and keep going, because there are people that need you, and people that need you will be upset if you do. So please don't, if you really think you can't control the urge then seek help from the number JustASpeak posted.
Slow down there! What I meant by saying everyone deserves to be beautiful, is that everyone should feel beautiful! It's the idea of confidence in yourself. The world isn't black and white. It's not 100% cruel! and not 100% perfect, but everyone should try to strive to feel 100% confident. No one is perfect, and I'm not saying acne is a small thing, but it's also not the only thing about you! If you only see yourself as having acne, and not as someone with a passion or hobby or beautiful eyes, then you're letting the acne and your insecurities win. Don't let it rule your life. There will be ups and downs, but try to vent in a way that you can look back on as supportive later. The example starfish gave you with the journal, it doesn't have to be words! It could be photos, or drawings or painting. You can compose short melodies, or take it out at the gym. We just want you to realize that even the most beautiful or confident people have something they may feel bad or insecure about. Everyone knows you can't control acne. Even if you have no money to see a doctor now, don't let acne be what pushes you to do something that will be painful for so many people to see. Hang in there!
Firstly, if you feel you are on the edge, PLEASE call a help line -800-273-TALK (8255). Now, this has obviously been on your mind a lot, and you're sick of hearing those kinds of sentences, and I will add another generic one...everyone deserves to be beautiful, they just may not feel that they are. If your acne is bothering you so much, talk to a dermatologist. They have amazing amazing medicines that will help. I wish I could say people will leave you alone, but in my experience, bullies find physical things to say about you when they're jealous of you for another reason. Your personality must be a diamond! Or you have another talent that makes then wish they were you. If you leave now, they will remember you as you are now, upset because of something that is hard to deal with, but can be made manageable. I don't know how much you have done in regards to your problem or if others do have no life, but I really do hope you realize being confident and at ease with yourself will shut everyone up, and they won't be able to look at the acne, because YOU will outshine it! Keep fighting! There are options out there! Smile and message me or call -800-273-TALK (8255) if you want to discuss/talk/vent!
Oh sweetheart, don't go through with your plan. The feeling of helplessness and anger towards yourself is familiar, so know that you are not alone. But know this; suicide is a permanent problem to a temporary situation. I know that your life may seem bleak and dark right now, but there will always be storm clouds. You don't get flowers without a little rain, right? I think what could help you a lot is to keep a journal, or a diary, whatever you want to call it. Now each day, I would like you to write down whatever you feel inside you. All your emotions, write them out. Get all that stuff out of your system, little by little. Write about how your day went. Write about a pretty flower you saw. Write about the colour of sky at sunset that day. Write about your new hairstyle. Write about how cute your outfit was that day. Of course, it will take some time to get used to writing and keeping a journal. And of course, there will be days where the only things you'll write about are your insecurities, your fears and everything dark and stormy. But there will also be days where the sun breaks through the clouds and gentle breezes fill the pages. One day, you will look back on your book and see everything that's gotten you to that point. You'll see pages blotted over in angry ink and frustrated scribbles but you will also see pages full of light and even happiness. It's the best form of self-help or self-therapy that I've used and has actually helped me. So please, consider this option instead. You've gotten this far, right? You've held on until now, right? You're here and I know that you can go even further. It may not be easy, but it will be worth it. Keep holding on darling, and you'll get where you want to be. Take care love.
EH. Nothing seems to be working. I can't go to a dermatologist because my family couldn't pay for one. And if everybody deserves to be beautiful but only some are because they gey lucky or something stupid like that then I wanna kill myself even more, I don't want to live in a worl as cruel as that.
I wouldn't say EVERYBODY is or deserves to be beautiful, because that's not true. Unfortunately the people who are beautiful did get lucky, and like you said yourself that is cruel and this is a cruel world we live in. That doesn't mean you should kill yourself though, you just have to dodge all the bad parts of life like a fucking ninja and learn to live with the parts you can't dodge. If you can't learn to live with it yourself, then just message some people on here, and there's even a Skype group for this site (we just talk about random stuff, and more people should know about it.) I've met amazing people on here, and I know you can too!
i feel you! i got acne problems before as well and even today i get some few breakouts. I've never been to dermatologists as well because it costs a lot. i just tried on a LOT of products that might work on me, from pills to creams to acne gels, facial wash,soaps,masks etc.. (i mean just a LOT) LoL . Acne products promises you of clear skin if you apply it religiously but most just don't work, and even if it dries the pimple up the scarring never gets easy.and the more i think of it, the more it affects my self esteem. and it seems like my pimples are just having sex and multiplies. lol but cliche as it seems , it does go away when you get older, not really disappear in an instant but it does fade. just look at the bright ,oily skinned peeps when older won't easily get wrinkles that fast than the rest. as what i've read in a health magazine.you can try concealer and make up to hide it ,if you like, but i think its better you don't use a lot of make-up that much it makes skin aged that fast.just let your skin breath. relax yourself and well think happy thoughts. just focus on things that are much more important than physical appearance. because the more you think of it, the more you get stressed, and the stressed you are, the more you get those unwanted zits coz its more like a predisposing factors that leads to depression in your part. Hormones takes its toll. okay nuff said about science.some products that worked on me yet very cheap (because i try not to buy expensive ones coz its just pimples , it's not something worth dying for honestly)*PONDS acne facial scrub and celeteque acne toner. actually i don't like ponds product before esp. ponds cream makes my skin very sensitive so i avoided it. but their recent facial scrub seems good. it dries up my skin.well that's that.
Try going to the dermatologist if you're determined to get rid of your acne. It will take time but it will go away. I knew a dude that was called pizza face for years and he was COVERED in acne he went to the dermatologist and after only 2 months they were clearing up so fast. Please don't give up! It will get better as cliche as it sounds. I deal with issues too. I'm feel so fat and ugly and have some health issues where I can't lose weight very easily. It's tough, but you can take steps to change it before you chose that option.
I'm 17, I also have acne, and sometimes I feel ugly, just as you. There are phases that I hate myself and it's really hard for me to be with my friends because I feel like they're always judging me and excluding me. I repeat to myself "Why can't I be «normal»? Why am I not beautiful? ...With a nice body? ...Social?». I've never thought in suicide but I thought that I didn't deserve to live, that there was no reason once that I'm not important to anyone, that I'm not doing anything in this world besides bothering the others. Yes, that was how I felt for days, an horrible person inside and outside. Then I realized that nobody hated me the same way as I did and that I do deserve to live, and more than that, to be happy. I recognized that my faults and flaws don't define me, I am much more than that; I've qualities, I'm unique and I've dreams... and I'm going to fight for them, for my happiness! Because I deserve! If you're tired of hearing that everyone is beautiful... Ask yourself if you would choose your friends based in their face and body rather than on the personality. Maybe you can't change a lot in your appearence but you can always improve your personality and be a nice person. You don't need to be beautiful to be loved, true love is blind. Talk with your friends, ask for help if you feel ok to explain that to them. I know that it's hard at the beggining but when you have a support it gets easier.