I am suffering right now. I have just been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I do not know how to get passed this. It has a horrible stigma and i feel like I don’t take out my anger on others except for myself. I don’t have hate or disgust for other people except for myself. I am so ashamed of being diagnosed as this as I have a huge heart and want the best for people. This diagnosis is making my self esteem worse and makes me feel like everyone would be better off without me if i’m considered unstable. I feel like I should stop talking to everybody and havn’t been able to stop crying. Some of the things I have read online are horrible about this disorder and I just feel everyone would be better off if I shut myself out. Im hurting so much, and don’t know who to turn to. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so so much.
Take comfort. Your reaction is natural. Many people are confused and upset when they are diagnosed with an illness they don't fully understand. It happens with all types of diseases. This is not unique to your diagnosis. First, don't look up any more information about this diagnosis on the internet. You often only find the bad news without the good news to go with it. Second, schedule a follow up appointment with the doctor that made the diagnosis. Make a list of questions that you want to ask and get them answered. And remember, you are not alone. There is always someone that will talk with you.