I joined this website because I thought it would be a good idea to have somewhere I could go for advice and that it would be nice to be available for people to vent to but when I tried to connect to someone as a listener I immediately panicked and closed the window before it could connect me to someone. I knew this would probably happen because I’ve tried going on omegle.com several times before (which, even though it’s not used for the same reasons, is a similar set up) with the same result, however I tried just the same and thought that maybe I could be brave and get over it but it was like I smacked into a big wall that just said No and immediately had to turn around and go back. I just felt so pathetic because it’s not like having to have a conversation face to face with someone important but talking anonymously to strangers over the internet but I couldn’t do it.
Even trying to post this is hard. I’ve been thinking it over and being nervous about it all day and I think probably the only reason I’ll manage to post it is that I can go over carefully what I’m saying as much as I want and there’s no pressure to reply quickly or at all.
What is wrong with me?
