Why do good people have to suffer ?

Hey Nicco. You expressed a lot of anger in your first message and you vented out on it, which is good. Writing down your thoughts when you're angry helps a lot. Also there's other ways to manage anger like catching yourself when you feel you're getting angry and breathe deep and count to 10 (and focusing on that) before reacting, leaving the room or the conversation if you feel like you're getting upset. Anger is a natural feeling but it's damaging when it gets too strong and we lose control. Anger management is about learning to see the signs of anger on time and knowing how to stop before it gets to strong. Some signs could be rapid breathing and heartbeat, sweating, racing thoughts, thoughts that someone did something intentionally to upset or hurt you, thinking that something is not fair or correct and you need to make it right, etc).Do some more research on that (try helpguide.com for a great free course) and work on it because leaving the country will not help very much, the unexpressed anger eventually comes out no matter where you are. And one more thing, you can actually make a habit to channel the intense energy of anger for doing positive things. You can do it! Best of luck!

Nicco I could tell you do not dispear, do not lose hope, god is great and all powerful and he has a plan for you but I won't. I won't because I don't like selling lies and fake hopes.So get ready to face up to the honest, stone cold heartless truth. Life is bitch. That's why, you can't control a thing, you are prey to chances, and people if not always they are going to be dicks who try to hold you down because they don't amount to anything themselves and your success will be a constant reminder of their failure. After all it's easier to criticise someone else than face up and admit to your own shortcomings. So before you start getting depressed make sure you are not surrounded by assholes. Instead then of not giving a fuck and shutting yourself down, why not keep not giving a fuck and do whatever the hell you want?Did I say life is a bitch? You can always grab her by the hair and treat her like the bitch she is!Have a good day.

you only need to believe in yourself, to get where you want to go. there will always be people who will not support you, But. There will also be people to lift you up, to agree with you. and NO, do not stop believing, believe you can do it and you will. You will be good at doing whatever you love to do. No matter what that may be. if you keep doing the things you hate, well you won't be very good at it unless you force yourself to. hold on , and do it. Believe in yourself, even if nobody else will. Trust me,it may be hard at first. But if you hold on, you will get there. And everything will pay off.

Amen, Chris!

Been there, done that Nicco. And then I did exactly what Chris told you to do: I grabbed that bitch Life by her hair and treated her like the bitch she is. I once read a quote... "'There are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't. What you've got to do is turn around and say 'watch me.'"...... I smirk at the nay-sayers now and say, "Watch me." It drives them nuts and burns them even more when I give it my all and succeed. "I will inflict upon my enemies the greatest insult they can suffer: to be ignored."

(That last bit, for you gamers out there, is a loose quotation based on Warlord Okeer's remarks regarding the genophage in Mass Effect 2.) But it's still awesome. So, Nicco, look it up if you haven't played the game. Be a Krogan :)

I have spent the past three years in your shoes. I had to leave my wife for cheating on me and she wouldn't change. After the initial shock, I spiraled into a deep depression and had a mental breakdown. You know who was there for me? No one. So I closed myself off, I decided that I would rather not feel at all than to hurt all the time. To be honest, looking back, shutting down probably saved my life. So I can't advise not to, but I can tell you that if you shut down at some point you will get tired of the dullness, not ever being sad but not ever being happy also. You will need to restart... that is where I am right now and its difficult because to do so I have to go back and deal with the pain and the issues that I avoided. Shutting down protecting me from pain and sadness that I truly felt was going to kill me. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, shut down if you really NEED to, but understand that you are only avoiding the pain. At some point you will have to deal with the disappointment and pain you feel. {Nameste}

Thank you all for your honest replies , i really appreciate it , it's kind of good to see that i'm not the only one who thinks life is a bitch , but the thing is if i going to move on i first need to move out , and by out i mean leave the country cause i can't live with these people any more , i'm the kind of person who solve his problems with violence (i'm not proud of it) i have anger management issues and no one to help me deal with it , so unless i leave the coutnry (which i'm trying to do currently) i will never be able to move on and restart ... And again thank you all for your awesome answers , it gives hope ....

I understand how you feel ("what is the point if you have no one to share it with"). But I think it is wonderful how much you believe in yourself and your own ideas. I hope you meet people who will support you later down the road but what is most important is that you believe in yourself and who you are and what you have to offer the world even if it's hard at first. So many people don't believe in themselves at all. So it is wonderful that you do. Anyway you said you are starting to get your hope back so that is great. There will always be someone who cares about you. The world is neither all bad nor all good. It is a combination of both. And you know what? The greatest beauty can come through the hardest of challenges. Your story is hardly finished. You are just getting started.

I myself wonder how my story will end lol ...