I don’t know what to do at this point.. I have been trying to get better and be happier.. but I seem to not be trying hard enough. I have been trying to get help but I seem to think i don’t need any help.. I know I need help but my mind just doesn’t want to believe it. Every time someone tries to help me I end up pushing them away. I just need advice as to what to do. I think of what it would be like not to be here anymore.. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Every single day I wake up thinking of death, and it scares the living hell out of me.. Ugh, i’m just broken beyond repair… Why am i even still here..?