Long story short I was with my ex girlfriend 15 months, we broke up because she wanted to be single for a while experience what else is out there but ultimately loved me and wanted to be with me in the future, I took it hard and we found ourselves arguing alot when conversation was presented, in January she tried to kill herself because she was tired of hurting people and manipulating them namely myself. She was later diagnosed with BPD in hospital.
I gave her some space the best I could and a few weeks later she contacted me by another number saying she misses talking to me, at first I said to her we need space and she needs to focus on herself getting better then I could see she was upset so I spoke with her for an hour and a half on the phone, we talked about life and our relationship and she told me she did want to be with me but wanted to be sure in her mind and to not mess this whole thing up taking baby steps.
I saw her last weekend for the first time in 10 weeks, it was wonderful, wed spoken previously in text messages about how we missed cuddling and waking up next to one another but once we were in each others presence she couldnt bring herself to do these things, which was fine, i dont want to rush her i really want this to work.
Besides from simply talking to me, she is sexually active with other people and I dunno if this is what she wants or the disorder making it what she wants and she sees a therapist once a week, she tells me this is helping her, but my question is what can I do to help myself, I havent really got alot of friends when shes upset she can speak to her family because she lives with them or get in contact with several other boys shes currently hanging out with.
Lastly she asked me last night what the chances of us getting back together are, give her a percentage, when i asked her why she just said just answer it, so i said if we took it carefully id say a strong 80%, she didnt give me an answer but I told her I wanted her to focus on herself more than anything.
