Recently, I learned that my father has been having an affair with his nurse/secretary for almost a decade and that the reason why he sent me and the rest of my family to study abroad was to cheat safely. My parents did get a divorce a few months ago, and I am currently facing financial and emotional problems. But the biggest problems that I am facing are depression and disgust. I am currently in my college dormitory, in a single room, so I do get lonely a lot. But recently, it’s gotten worse and I feel like even after I go home and meet my family or make new friends, nothing will ever change because my personality has been ruined already. After learning about my father, I can’t help but suspect people and imagine the worst possible secret they might be hiding underneath their smiles and kindness. Anyone has the right to keep a secret or two, and everyone’s priority number one is themselves, not me. Also, I feel disgusted when I hear about anything related to sexual relationship, the human body in general, or couples. I even feel repulsive when I look at my own body when taking a shower or changing clothes. This disgust gets worse everyday, and it’s really stressing me out. Are my problems normal considering my situation? Or am I reacting too sensitively? Should I get some kind of psychological treatment? Please share your thoughts with me…
It is never a bad thing to talk to someone. From what you wrote I can't properly assess what your whole situation is, but an hour or two with someone who you can talk face to face with is a completely different story. They can assess if you should take medication, join support groups, or even suggest more counseling. They can get to the bottom of your depression and even help your self-image.
If you are uncomfortable finding a person to talk to, feel free to pm me and we can talk about it on something like skype, or an irc.
I'm not sure your age, but I think if this has happened to you already, it's time to face the hard truth that the only person you can really trust is yourself. I'm not saying that people are horrible and will always do bad things to you, but just don't automatically expect things to happen for you when there are people involved. As per the agreement of joining this site I can't assess you, as I'm not a professional, but being a person who has been in a situation where their 'best friend' literally stabbed them in the back, I think your reaction is perfectly normal comparing the subjectivity of normality with my own circumstantial paradigm. I personally didn't seek any help, but as life moves on, I remain a stagnant misanthrope and kind of wish I had.