I am a guy and this past November I did some experimenting with other guys. Okay one guy. I got the nerve to tell him how I felt and all of my other questions regarding guys is directed at him directly. I was close friends with him and still am to this very day. I finally got the nerve to tell him how I felt about him and I hugged him all the time like a relationship based hug and it was like a boyfriend girlfriend type hug but like everytime I would go to do it I would get scared and nervous to go in and do it and nobody judged us but at the same time he is straight. There was an occasion where I was crying and he grabbed me around my stomach and gave me a hugeee bear hug where he dragged me, danced with me in his arms even though I wouldn’t do it too and I liked it but I just could never do it to him. I attempted to kiss him but I wouldn’t tell go for it also. Like am I shy or something?
I don't know if it's because you're shy. Since you said your friend is straight, you might be hesitant to initiate anything.I don't know if you feel this way, but I sometimes feel creepy liking straight girls. Despite having a boyfriend, I really like a straight girl I know, and I feel like she realizes and keeps her distance from me because of that. Maybe you should try kissing him and see how it goes, but be prepared for the possibility that it might ruin your friendship. But then again, you guys experimented together and he knows how you feel, so who knows? It might work out.
You're not shy. You're just afraid of what would happen if you make the move on your friend. It's understandable, as you said, your friend is straight, and you don't want to change things with this guy. It's the common problem of boy-girl friendships, where you're afraid to ask your friend out because the friendship might change. It just might work out. It might sound odd, but if you want to see what happens, perhaps you could ask him if it would be okay to kiss him or something. Who knows, maybe your friend would be okay with it. Just as long as you both are okay with what's going on. He might be bisexual- who knows. I wish you the best. :)
I think you aren't shy as you are hesitant for sure. Especially since this guy is a very good friend of yours. You don't want to make a move or cause something to ruin or damage the friendship you have going on. I think that kissing this guy, who is still straight, might be too big of a leap. It's a BIG step and it might scare him or rethink this friendship and relationship that you have. I recommend that you try talking with him more and getting a good feel from him what this relationship is. But no matter what, absolutely cherish this friendship that you have with him! He sounds like a "one in a million" guy and you guys obviously have good chemistry. If you feel like you want this relationship to go further, try talking with him first. Kissing might be a little too much for this situation.