I’m new to this site, but desperate :/
My best friend (who is now my ex-boyfriend) and I have been “together” for over 3 years. I’m 18, we met when I was 14. We broke up 5 months ago after he kissed another girl.
About a month ago we tried to rekindle everything. I have tried countless times to get him back, to figure out why he doesn’t want to be close with me, but he is distant now and I can’t find the guy I used to know.
I just told him it’s best if we don’t see each other and he said “Whatever you want.” He just doesn’t care. I’m so unbelievably destroyed by this. I don’t want anyone else. I don’t have very many friends, if any. I take all of my courses (senior in HS) online, so I don’t see other kids every day.
I have a friend who lives too far away for me to see basically ever. I have my family. That’s it. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to do anything, see anyone, or think about anything. I feel so sad and lost and lonely. What should I do now? I don’t know where to begin.