I’m a senior in college about to graduate with a degree in chemical engineering in a few months. I worked my ass off to get here. I devoted every aspect of my life, every single cell in my body towards education. Everything that is me is School. My education is all that defines me and nothing else. Despite my hardest efforts I’m not a 4.0 student. Actually my GPA is only a 2.8, and in the engineering job market I’m barely worth 2 cents compared to smarter ppl. I put my entire life into getting this degree just to have it spit on by employers. If I cant get a job after getting this 5 year degree then that means all of this hard work was for nothing and deciding to go to college was one big mistake. If I’m going to get this degree just to end up working at Walmart anyway, then that means I’m a born Loser who will always fail at life no matter how hard i try. If I cant get a good job then that means I’ve failed myself and everyone who believed in me, and honestly I’m not gonna live with myself if it comes down to that. I’m sick of this shit, and I’m not about to live a meaningless life; I’d rather not live at all. Because after all this there’s nothing left to define me, so i may as well not exist.