So, I invited my boyfriend (of almost two years) to spend the night at my house for NYE sometime last week and he said he had other plans that might fall through and would come over. He’s never slept at my house before, so I was happy about the idea. His mom said yes and that she trusts us, my mom said yes because she trusts me. Then, a few days ago, he told me that his old plans didn’t fall through and now his friends wanted him to contribute to the small party they’ll be having that night. I told him it was his choice to spend the night with his friends or with me, and he eventually chose his friends. I could have left it at that and found another friend to spend NYE with, but I didn’t.
Just the day before, he told me he was worried about me because I’ve been on edge lately and my mental instability and mood swings and all haven’t been getting better. Well, when he told me he was choosing his friends over me, I had an anxiety attack and proceeded to flip out on him for doing so.
After two and a half hours of arguing, I broke down and told him why I was so upset the day before and that I just needed him with me. So he decided he’s spending NYE with me.
I really wanted him to make whichever choice he wanted to make, but I wanted his choice to be me. Usually I don’t like him choosing me over his friends but this time I just really wanted him to be with me and not them. I’ve also started resenting his friends for seemingly no reason.
Usually I’d feel bad about basically forcing him to pick me over his friends but I don’t feel any remorse and am in the process of cleaning my room for him to spend the night. I’ve become heartless when it comes to his friends and I really don’t understand why because I used to love spending time with him and his friends.
Is it wrong of me to be so happy that I got my way?