not sure on the category this would go under.
i don’t know if I’m fully sane or not and well can’t sleep so need to vent a little / see if anyone can help me a little.
I am 23 year old male at uni in my 2nd year. for i guess about 7 years (guessing as i didn’t notice this until a friend pointed it out and it only got worse) I have hated being touch mostly by men but some bad days women too, i have to wipe or clean the area and if i don’t it feels worse and worse the area that’s been touched. its like a mark is there really uncomfortable until i can’t bear it and have to do something. today i have not really interacted with many people but people i did i avoided any contact like the were highly contagious or something and well its been a really bad day basically and i’m not sure what to do about it really.
some background though. I’m straight and never been abused or anything. I’ve had relationships and stuff. i had severe depression which i think i’m over or at least i don’t let it get me down even if i still think the same way as i did back then (self hatred and such) i even turned it into what makes me confident i know I’m butt ugly and an idiot so i not sure how but I’m confident in them statements so i appear confident somehow (broken logic i guess)
not sure what to put now
