I feel desperate. I fell in love with a guy I met online, we never actually met, but we chatted all day, and he said he loved me. We’re both 18. However, I needed to talk to him over the phone. When I called him, I felt like the gap between us was vanishing. But he didn’t want to tell his parents about me, so we couldn’t call often, and I started feeling so sad I would cry every night. We’re far apart, but next year he’ll graduate and we’ll be nearer (2 hours in car). Also, he doesn’t pay to travel by train.
This made me think it could work. But things got worse, I got sad for no reason and I nedeed to call him more and more each day. But I could not. That’s why I separeted myself from him, I told him I didn’t want to be with him anymore, and we should never see each other again. That was not what I wanted, but I was so sad, and he was sad too, but still didn’t want to call me more often, and that’s how we kinda “broke up”. I think I have a problem… please, help me.
I have no friends, I hate my school, I stay at the pc almost always, I’m ALONE. He had become my everything and I was obsessed with him, but that wasn’t healthy. That’s why I was feeling so sad, I guess? I’m here to ask you what do you think about me and what I did. Do you think our relationship could work, if I manage to wait 1 year? Do you think I have mental problems? My life style is sick. What can I do now? I’m so sad and clueless, I feel lost. Thanks for reading.