Hello everyone, i hope you’re having a good day, i’m Paul. When i was around 13 years old i kind of got the idea that god didn’t exist (i’m 17 now), i didn’t lose faith or something sad happened; for me it just wasn’t possible for god to exist. I still am an atheist and i still don’t believe that god exists. But i know that from when i was 13 and now i’ve been getting depressed. I didn’t have a clue why until several years ago that wel,l religious people are in fact a bit happier than me at least (not everyone, just in the general idea) and in my opinion i think its because they have a kind of purpose to live for and a spiritual guide.
There are a lot of reasons why i’m kind of deppressed, but losing faith may be one of those reasons, i’m not saying you have to have faith to be happy, i’m just saying that for me its kind of a reason. I lost a kind of purpose to life, now i don’t want to die obviously but i don’t see a lot to live for and religion kind f gave that sense of purpose on this life.
So what i’m saying, can i still have a guide, purpose and will as same as religion without being religious. A guide, something to believe in that i will believe in, not some other religion. Something that will make sense for me since i am often cynical, direct and logical, something that’ll give me a strong will so i can continue living my life. If you’re an atheist too and you found something like that please comment, it can be anything, people, experiences, a wise phrase. Just something.
Now don’t tell me i have to have faith in god or that i must rejoin god, that god loves me and that i have to accept Jesus, God, Allah or some other people into my heart, i already have gone past that and people have told me countless times, i don’t need to hear it again. I need an answer please. Thank you for listening.