My boyfriend and I just broke up. We were together for around 8 months and I can honestly say at the beginning of our relationship I couldn’t have been happier. Around 6 months our lives fell apart, he dealt with difficult withdrawals from his pain medication for his broken back, he lost all his money, couldn’t find a house or a job. I was coming close to the end of college, quit my job, faced depression, was abandoned by my famiky, lost my friends, and just hated my life. We were butting heads because we were under such stress and we took it out on one another.
We had roadtrips planned the next couple of months, and one is coming up in a week and a half. That is literally the only thing in my life that was going to be happening, i have nothing else, no friends, no class, no work, no family. We broke up because we feel l I keep we are struggling to be what the other needs. I realized he didn’t take me into consideration when he last minute changed plans so that it would be a couple month road trip instead of three smaller trips. he had gotten distant and uncaring the last few months, and he wasn’t even willing to compromise this one thing, so we mutually decided that this wasn’t our time.
we love each other and have no idea how to go on without the other person, he told me he does not know why he can’t treat me the way I deserve.
after we broke up we talked about our relationship and I felt so close to him, we both felt like it was the first honest conversation we have had in a couple months. It was like it was before we had our rough patch. He says he wants to grow old with me, and he asked if I would run away with him in a few weeks under the understanding that we are partners. Not a relationship, but that we would be working towards that again.
I don’t know what to do, should I go with him? I really want to, but I’m scared that things will go back to the way they were. I don’t even know what to do with my life without him, I really love him and all I want is for us to be OK again.