Been with my man almost 2 years now. I am 17 weeks pregnant he has yet to at least ask me for marriage but we have talked about it. I have a lot of insecurities about him. He likes to text with other woman and I have confronted him about it many times , he simply Thinks that he is not doing wrong and gets mad at me for checking his phone. however it makes me feel he has been cheating on me. Lately he has been going out with his “tigres” on guys night outs and has not even come home to sleep couple of times or shows up at 6am. Last week I found yet again new woman he has been texting with, this time was not innocent texts, he sent image of naked couple in bed and said that’s the way he would like to be with Her also said he missed her lips, the woman replied she thought he had very special lips and well the texts go on and on. Of course I confronted him and he acts out on me trying to argue with me about all my faults and redirect everything on me as if I am the one who is doing something wrong ( I have been distant for few months due to previous issues with texts and I feel I am gonna get hurt so I sort of put a wall up and I reject him etc) He once again makes the argument about me checking his phone and doesn’t own up to his actions and says that nothing Happened. I feel so helpless and indignation about his behavior. I mean I am pregnant and he can’t even respect that. He has been wanting a child since we met and he keeps saying he loves me but I just don’t understand how someone can want a family and yet go out as he was a single man, I don’t understand how he can say I love you yet call “mi Amor” someone else. I have tried to leave and I have tried to ask him to just separate Amicably for the sake of our child but he insists that we have something good and he just moves on and acts as if nothing has ever happened. I have asked him to make changes that I am willing to let go of the past but he needs to change moving forward. He says he will but then he comes home late again and continues with the phone passwords and mysteries. To make my situation worst , I was let go of my job as soon as I announced I am pregnant. I tried seeking for legal advice since I feel I have been discriminated but due to small business with less than 10 employees there is not much I could do. So now I find myself unemployed , pregnant and unhappy. I am an emotional wreck , I cry everyday. I am not sure how to go from here. My heart tells my I should leave but my mind tells me I should stay for my baby since right now I have no money or place to go
