My ex and I split due to severe depression on my part. I have always had it, however have never treated it until recently. I was diagnosed with PTSD and major depressive disorder. I bottled up a lot for a very long time. I am not denying that the last 3 years of our relationship (we were together for 6 years total) were extremely hard and emotionally taxing for him. The only things I had been able to do were take care of my child and go to work; and I wasn’t doing the best at either of those either. There were days that I could not even get out of bed because the depression had become physically paralyzing. I was so lost in it that I didnt know how to help myself. He left me very unexpectedly (although it is crystal clear why now) and in a hurtful way. I moved out and back to my parents at the beginning of summer. I started getting help for myself and am doing much better now. I understand that this will always be a constant battle for the rest of my life, but can also be managed and kept under control. Since then we have remained in contact and still see each other a few times a month. Since then, he has been living the single bachelor life and bought a new house. He says that at the end of the year if I can prove that I can take care of myself that we can revisit a relationship, and that my child and I should be able to come back home next summer. The tricky part is that I have already disrupted my childs school schedule and emotional well being with the move. I think it may be more detrimental to her to move her back and forth. Also, however selfish it may seem, the idea of him potentially being with anyone else during that time is heartbreaking. I don’t know how I would feel being around friends that have seen him with other women over the past few months. I love him with all my heart but am unsure if the damage can be repaired.