Me: 34-year old female. never had a boyfriend until now. had been a workaholic with very low self esteem because I had weight issues all my life. has a good job and credit. never really dated; was virgin until a few months ago. recently lost a lot of weight and now getting attention from men, but mostly just sexual in nature, no serious offers for relationships. my best friends all have their own lives now and in serious relationships. very lonely. probably very depressed.
Him: very good-looking 19 year-old college student. met him through an online dating app 3 weeks ago. no money, in debt from gambling losses. he also likes fancy things. he was talking to me about needing football shoes like he wanted me to pay for them. also was joking about asking me to buy him a fancy phone. he wooed me and paid me a lot of attention for three weeks. i stupidly fell in love with him, and it’s my first time to fall in love. i don’t know if this is really love. all i know is that I want him to be happy. he said he loved me too. I felt it. either it was true, or he is just very good and I’m very stupid.. today he admitted that he used to be a call boy. he slept with older women for money to pay for his gambling debts. said he wanted to do the same to me but he fell in love. wanted to break up because he needs to go back to being a call boy because he needs to settle his debt from sharks. asked if he could borrow from me instead. it’s not a big amount and will not break my bank. about 400USD.
Situation: I want to keep being with him. he makes me happy. but he’s also dishonest. he will not let me see his messages in the dating app where we met. I feel that he’s still using it to meet women. i can’t trust him. but at the same time I want to see where this goes. i want to know if he really loves me. or if I can make him love me for real.
Question: give him the money and keep seeing him? or walk away now while I have not? if I do the first and get heart broken, I’ll be BROKEN. if I walk away without giving it a chance, i’ll forever question myself.
Anyone with experience in the same, advice would be much appreciated.
Thanks.