So there’s this girl that I’ve been talking to/meeting. Everything was going the right direction or at least I thought so (fe. when we where hanging out we would give each other a quick kiss for goodbye), until I asked her the big question “do you want to be with me”. She said that she just recently has been out of the relationship and doesn’t want to get into another one just yet, she needs time and she want to be friends for now. I was okay with that and understood that she needs time. But since then our relations changed. From a kiss for goodbye it went to a high-five for goodbye. She started calling me “friend” more often, etc. But still she would say “i love you” or say some sweet sometimes even nasty/sexual things towards me. So after I while I started feeling uncomfortable in this “friend zone” situation. So I told her that I still have feelings for her and would like to be with her. But she replied with the same thing as before, that she doesnt want to be in a relationship and it’s better of if we stay just “best friends”. Now I told her that I don’t know if I can do that, because I know my feelings will get in the way (which they do) and it will make it painful for me. So she just said that “You don’t love me, you’re just attracted to me” and after I tried brining up the topic again she was just ignoring it, trying to change the topic, etc.
So now idk what to do. From one side I can’t stand when we’re not talking and when she’s not writing to me I am writing to her, because the thought of her being out of my life is painful, but on the other hand I don’t want to be her just “best friend” because I constantly have feeling for her and talking to her, whilist knowing that we won’t become anything more is extremely painful for me. So one way or another it’s painful for me. And I just don’t know what to do, that’s why Im asking for advice.