I have been having weird thoughts lately. Every time I get upset, I would have images that would flash in my mind of me cutting myself or of me committing suicide. It has been going on like this since I was a senior in High School. I would often have panic attacks at night because I was so scared of these images. Four years later, just when I thought everything was fine, it started up again after a huge argument with my mother. I told her later that night that I would keep all my thoughts to myself because I never wanted to be a burden to anyone else. I have always thought these were my problems to deal with. She told me that I needed to speak to a counselor or maybe even see a therapist and be put on medication. The problem is, I am afraid of therapists or counselors and I never want to be put on medication because I am afraid that I would have to live the rest of my life on them and become addicted to them. What should I do?