hi. im a 22 year old father who needs to stop using heroin. its draining my soul, time, and money. ive decided that its time to quit. im going to go on a suboxone (its like a much less serious version of methadone) taper that will leave me totally clean and through with withdrawals in about a months time.
im scared that i will never be happy as i am when im high. im scared that since the reward center of my brain is so messed up, ill be depressed for years with out a chemical added to the equation. im scared that ill fail. im scared that when i put down the drugs, ill look at myself and realize that im not the same person anymore as i was before them , even if im done with them now.
im terrified but i have to get it done with. any words of advice. ive done the whole NA thing and im considering going back.
Heroin withdrawal is not fun. You CAN recover from it, but it is likely you will always kinda yearn for it in times of need. You will find certain things will trigger cravings, things that are common in your using, like needles or certain environments. I would recommend you learn to recognize these, rationalize them and understand them. NA is a good idea, so is a connection with friends and family. Social support will save your ass when the chips are down.
You might also want to look into better medical alternatives. I know that with a lot of addicts, it is very likely that they are self-medicating. I recommend you see a doctor or therapist about that, because you you are depressed, you will likely simply go back.
All things considered, I wish you luck. You have one hell of a fight ahead of you, but it's a fight you can win. Be prosperous in your endeavors.
That's the nasty thing about heroin, you let it in. It makes things seem beautiful. It makes you believe it's you're friend.
I realize you probably know this, but I'm saying anyway.Heroin's one Hell of a drug, but if you keep taking it. You will be dead before your heart stops. You'll lose everything including yourself.You know why you should stop with out asking anyone. You just have to be strong enough to do it. Once the withdraw is over it'll be easier.Just don't let the dark nights that come (and they will) make you fall back to it.You're stronger than this, you can do this.
You are a father now. You have a family that needs you. That should be enough of a reason to quit. Return to NA and stick to the program. If you can't imagine your happiness without the use of heroin, then maybe you can imagine your child with a father who is locked up in his own world up in the sky. A child that'll have to live through your drug addiction. I know that this may come across as vindictive, but believe me when I say it comes from someone worried about the security of a family emotionally and physically.
i love the replys to this my friend is in a boat like yours he is 21 has a 8 month old beautiful girl today is his 90 days off the crap he has left behind his hooks and "friends" other then me witch means the world to me its taken him 3 o.ds to get his head out his ass and relized his little girl needed better then that in her life he always was a good father but black likes to make us want it more then we tend to think at the time well back to the story his baby moma is all strung out still but to the point from what it sounds like is that your addicted to cheese you will always have your trigers but if you want if you really want with all your heart for YOU, YOUR CHID, FAMILY then you will fight for your stability its a war baby youll have your battles im not going to lie you may loose some but you just have to look in your heart to see what you really want get up grit them teeth and keep fighting my mother has been clean for like 14 years she goes to N.A. every week she will still tell you she has some struggels.. and maybe you still have some friends before the crap if your like me they avoid me like i have the swine flu i have been off the stuff for like 6 months still they call me a peace of shit and talk behind my back about how big of a junky i am and its funny i have 3 friends left in this world one is my wife one is the kid i started this story about who is the one who got me to do it the first time haha we are eachothers support whenever needed and my other friend who i feel like 90% of the time im being used by haha but ima finnish with this im sorry about my grammer and crap haha and i guess im telling you these things so you can take what you need from them to help you i hope it dose if you belive in your self you can do anything your childs life is going to be on the path you choose i truly do hope you find your way
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