Relationship Crisis


Have you ever connected to someone on so many levels that they become all that you want? We fell in love with each other like nothing you could ever imagine. This love was unreal. Obsessed with each other love. We went through everything together,and what we didn’t we ached to be with each other. Once the separation anxiety kicked in my life closed in on me. The funny thing is we were two kids with pretty bad cases of depression. When you have depression and only one person keeps you stable this can get pretty damn deep.
I didn’t want anything to do with my life besides be with him. He didn’t either, he told me he loved me and treated me like no other. The worst thing was he was really the only one that cared about me.
I know for a fact that this was extreme to revolve my everyday thought around him.
But then he started getting more busy and actually living a normal life. A year of growing and learning together, just to fall apart. He wanted space from me, he started thinking I was crazy when I wanted to see him so much. He wasn’t much for talking to me ever, but it now felt like he rarely even talked at all. He acted differently, his care for me almost seemed superficial and it was never like this before.
I sat in his car the day after he got his license and I couldn’t even speak. I don’t understand why he felt like a stranger. I looked at him, the way you’ve never seen anyone look at a person. He never looked at me back.
It is then when I realized that “I love you” and “I’m in love with you” really do mean two different things

I hope it is true what they say people can really die from broken hearts, because mine is shattered in a million pieces and I have nothing left to do with it.

Ive tried to kill myself multiple times and i just cant succeed

Category: Tags: asked February 22, 2014

4 Answers

Howdy, just got out of a long distance relationship myself, when my ex-gf decided she loved another guy more than me. It's been an emotional yo-yo afterwards and I recently snapped. But I know what it's like to feel like to connect with someone on that deep level, how it feels like they are your everything and how it feels when you lose it all. And I know the feeling of hopelessness and the want to die. That you want to give up. All I can tell you is no matter how much you feel that it's the end, it isn't. It sucks, having to keep having to live with that pain, but there are people who care about you. And while I'm still having a hard time trying to cope with this, you will meet someone else. For all you know, you might meet a new person that could make you feel even happier, or you just might make a life-long friend. If you need to talk to someone, I'll be on and off online. I came here when I first broke up, and kinda made a new friend. We chat about games and our own problems. From what you described, you seem like me in a way, and I found that just talking to an understanding person helps. You could even go to the vent/listen chats. Now be a good girl and stay alive for now. (Haha, always gotta add my weird humor in.)
It's not over though, I just don't know how to handle it. I can't let him go because he is literally all I have.
I know how you feel. I felt like that too. And trust me when I say I recently had a bad breakdown. But you gotta get out, or try talking to people online. Personally I'm trying to talk to people online, and make some new friends. For example, I made that friend I mentioned by coming here, and just talking a little. It's intimidating trying to get out/meet people online. It's hard letting go of that person, especially when they start distancing them-self from you. My ex was my world, but when she started distancing herself, it hurt a lot. I even considered suicide, since I can easily get depressed. But dying isn't the answer. While I still have trouble admitting it, I still have my life ahead of me, and can make someone else happy, just like you can. My advice is to follow his example and to get out more, and try to make new friends, even online friends. Probably not what you want to hear, but having a friend to talk to can really help a lot. Also if you do end, try not to talk to him much. I tried with my ex, and that was an emotional yo-yo that only left me feeling even worse then the initial breakup. She kept telling me she loved me, only to choose another guy, and lets just say she kept coming to me during her bad times with him, only to go back when she felt better. It was like a yo-yo where I would get over her to a good degree, only for her to tell me she loved me, and then leave again. Trust me, that really messed with my mind, and I don't want that to happen to you random stranger haha. (But seriously, I know it hurts, but if it does come to that, please take my advice into consideration) Again probably not what you want to hear, but that's advice from someone who has been in a similar situation.
Please don't try to end your life. I know this sounds so cliche but it gets better. It will take time for that to happen, but it is worth it when it does.