Have you ever connected to someone on so many levels that they become all that you want? We fell in love with each other like nothing you could ever imagine. This love was unreal. Obsessed with each other love. We went through everything together,and what we didn’t we ached to be with each other. Once the separation anxiety kicked in my life closed in on me. The funny thing is we were two kids with pretty bad cases of depression. When you have depression and only one person keeps you stable this can get pretty damn deep.
I didn’t want anything to do with my life besides be with him. He didn’t either, he told me he loved me and treated me like no other. The worst thing was he was really the only one that cared about me.
I know for a fact that this was extreme to revolve my everyday thought around him.
But then he started getting more busy and actually living a normal life. A year of growing and learning together, just to fall apart. He wanted space from me, he started thinking I was crazy when I wanted to see him so much. He wasn’t much for talking to me ever, but it now felt like he rarely even talked at all. He acted differently, his care for me almost seemed superficial and it was never like this before.
I sat in his car the day after he got his license and I couldn’t even speak. I don’t understand why he felt like a stranger. I looked at him, the way you’ve never seen anyone look at a person. He never looked at me back.
It is then when I realized that “I love you” and “I’m in love with you” really do mean two different things
I hope it is true what they say people can really die from broken hearts, because mine is shattered in a million pieces and I have nothing left to do with it.
Ive tried to kill myself multiple times and i just cant succeed