First off, I must say that I have no experience with alcohol or drug issues myself but I do have friends that involve themselves with the items. May I ask you why you sobered up? was it for someone? was it to better yourself? Think of that reason. Remind yourself why you stopped in the first place. I'm sorry and I don't really know what to tell you other than alcohol is never the answer. This woman, she needs you to stay strong. Stay strong for her, it has been a year, don't break that because of this feeling. I don't know if you believe in God or not but I do, and I will be praying for you and this woman. If you do believe in God then I suggest you put your faith in him and he will carry you through it. Remember, that we would never appreciate the light without the dark.