Will power is a chemical resource, a muscle that strengthens with use, but weakens with under use, or impulsivity. Nothing is more damaging to self-regulation than addiction. Also, the loss of inhibition while under the influence of alcohol is probably linked to your sexual activity -- for this reason, I would of course advice you to stop drinking, but this is of course easier said than done, because of the damage that alcoholism has surely caused to your self-regulatory faculties. What is important is to understand that gaining back that control will be a battle, and because self-control is an exhaustible chemical resource, relapse is likely, but not the end of the world. The most important thing is to not think that if you relapse once, that you might as well every following day. Come back stronger.Without rehab segregating you from alcohol, or other professional help, you will likely relapse, a couple of times, but just don't give up. Regain control of yourself, and your life.Might I also suggest trying mindfulness meditation, practicing pointed focus is a great tool for exercising your self regulatory faculties, and a break from racing thoughts. I wish you all the best, and great success.